Thursday, February 28, 2013

First Anniversary; One year post-chemo

First Year Anniversary...one year post- Chemo
February 28, 2013

It's an anniversary, It's a CELEBRATION!!!  One year Cancer FREE!!!  God be praised!!
Tomorrow; one year ago, my last chemo treatment...

It's hard to believe that a year can go so quickly and yet SO slowly.  Last Fall, post-op from the major surgery and cancer diagnosis, days were long and filled with God's care for me from my husband, children, sisters and many dear friends.  I well remember another post-hysterectomy gal telling me it took her a year to feel back to normal.  I couldn't begin to imagine 12 WHOLE months.  But, in many ways, she was right. 

It's 12+ months now, and I certainly am feeling more normal, energy wise more than ever.  Praise the Lord, from whom ALL blessings flow.  Last year,  I was preparing for my first chemotherapy treatment, mid-November, preparing to loose my hair, praying for strength as my body healed from surgery and asking God to help me be a testimony in all of this for His glory.

The past months, post chemo have been full and delightful as I get back into the routine of daily life and God continues to heal my body.

On May 17th our oldest son & his wife had their third child.  We were called and asked to come to the hospital to meet this new one, "don't ask any more questions, mom, just come".  After assuring us that mother & baby were all doing well, we couldn't get there fast enough to meet this new one AND to find out the baby's gender.  Such excitement as my dear hubby and I headed to WBH...After going through all the security we arrived in the birthing room, I couldn't wash my hands fast enough.  Our son, handed me his newborn and said, "Mom, I want you to meet "Molly Jewel".   Named for me, this beautiful treasure was placed in my arms and my knees when weak and the tears flowed.
You see, the same week as my cancer diagnosis, they found out this little darling was "on the way".  I was greatly honored and touched.


This was the next day, when the local cousins met
"Molly Jewel"...my arms were joyously full, but not as full as my heart.  God had richly given be the blessing
of seeing my "children's children" -Psalms 128:6



One day in early spring, tears filled my eyes as I washed my face and realized that my eye lashes had grown to a length enough to apply mascara.  What joy!  It's in the little things in life that we can rejoice in God's blessings!  I called my sisters, and we had a celebration of joy; even my lashes were growing.



The beginning of June, I headed back to work after a 9 month medical leave, working 3-4 days a week.  That certainly was an adjustment, but one I continue to enjoy as I interact with customers and sell kitchen & laundry appliances at our local appliance dealership.  Little by little my energy is returning and I am feeling more like myself.  The aches are slowly leaving my body and the hair is returning...
They say that strength returns in the same measure as your hair returns and chemo is leaving your body.



The last week of June our family of 22 gathered for a week vacation on the Jersey shore!  The laughter & fun was in abundance and my heart was FULL!
The grandchildren ranged in age from 6 weeks to 15 years.  The sun and sand were delightful as were all the shared meals, time on the playground and fun in the ocean!  God blessed us in so many ways.  Safety, health and just time together.  This was something I dreamed of as I sat in my chemo chair and lazy-boy recovering.  God truely gave me the desires of my heart to enjoy our family for those days together!  Praise His name!



 This is our precious family. 
Each one such a gift from the Lord.
Who would have believed 36 years ago when we were planning our wedding;
that our union would grow to such a fun group of loved ones.  God has been good to us!


Sometimes, we are just plain crazy...but SO fun!!!



In October I had a CT Scan as well as the three month interval of blood work.  All is normal and we are thankful!  Thankful to God for good reports and good doctors.  I am certain that the Lord blessed me when my family doctor on first visit sent me on the right path to an ovarian cancer diagnosis. 
 
This fall,  I saw both my family doctor and my oncologist.  I was thankful for the opportunity to thank them both for the good medical care.  My family doctor was VERY perceptive when he listened to my symptons to send me on the right track to find the cancer early stage.  What a blessing to be in the care of both of these professionals.  God has been GOOD to me!

In January it was time for blood work and  back to the doctor; again.  This time, my gynocologic oncologist.  She, as well is an amazing care  giver; for whom I am thankful.  All the results were again clear and blood work; including my white blood count (which has struggled since I began chemo) was NORMAL for the first time.  Maybe due to a slight infection I was fighting off, but regardless, I was praising the Lord. 

Late January, my husband & I spent some time in sunny Florida for some R&R with some dear friends.  The weather was warm and delightful and the fellowship sweet.  Another gift from the Lord.



My good man of almost 36 years!


Our 8 younger grandchildren the last time we were together!  Such delight!!!

My 4 beautiful daughters; two of which married into our family!  Love them!!!



These days 1 year out of chemo, I am feeling much more like myself.  Yes, I will continue to have quarterly visits with my Oncologist for blood work and  bi-annual ct scans.  Hopefully next February, I will be able to have my medi-port removed.  (Doc says I should leave it in for 2 years; just to be sure I don't have a re-currance of cancer and need more chemo).  Not to worry; I know my God has a plan and nothing apart from His perfect will comes into my life without going thru His Hand of love.    I trust Him completely. 

I continue to reach out to others who are on a cancer journey.  Praying that I can encourage them as I have have been encouaged & blessed by many of you.  I have been encouraged as I see others learn to trust the Lord in their own journey and I trust that in some small way, I can bless their lives as they go thru treatment and the aftermath of surgery.  It can be a tough regiment and some days are very bleak, BUT God is faithful regardless..

Sometime people comment about how I am doing,....my response; "God is good", but "He would still be good even if I were laying sick in bed."   cause His character cannot change.  He is GOD REGARDLESS and He is GOOD!



I have SO much to thank my heavenly Father for. 
for the blessing of cancer and all I learned on the journey.  It has been a year & half of much dependence on God's grace, of trusting His word and enjoying the blessings of family and friends on this side of eternity.

Today, I recieved a note from a friend to celebrate one year out of chemo.  This gal has stood by me; praying, sharing verses, encouraging, calling, etc.  In fact, she took me to my last chemo treatment February 29, 2012.  That morning before she picked me up, as she was reading her Bible, she read the following verse.  One neither of us knew was in the Bible, but one that fit perfect for that day.

"This is the day we have waited for, we have lived to see it."  Lamentations 2:16b

It was indeed, the day we had waited for...my last chemo treatment.  I rejoice that the "chemo chapter is complete. 
I have learned much about how to care for others in time of need.  I am blessed beyond measure...

Thanks to each of you who prayed and journeyed with me this last year and half.  You blessed my life in more ways that you ever know.    I am a Survivor;  a result of God's mercy & faithfulness in my life..

~Jul

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

1 year anniversary. God be praised! Sept 2012

This is from my journal 5+ months ago.   September 2012    On the anniversary of my cancer diagnosis...
I know it is late and belated but I wanted to share it with you...



This past week we celebrated an anniversary at our house.
It was Thursday morning and I texted my local children...it read something like this;

This evening last year we all gathered at our dinner table to share news none of us wanted to hear.  A cancer diagnosis...
But God has graciously brought us thru this year of cancer battle, so please come celebrate tonight this year of God's goodness around a table of JOY, celebration, (and dinner).

We greatly missed our Virginia family but most of the others were around the table. It had such a different flavor this year as my good husband grilled steaks to rejoice in God's healing to my body.
Last year there were many questions, tears, and prayers for wisdom.

This year I took opportunity to verbally share some of the verses God used to minister to me on this journey, I wrote out the verses & placed them on the table, one for each of the adults to read so we could all reflect on how God uses His word to encourage us.

I'll share some of them with you.


Isaiah 41:9b,10,13
"...you are my servant; 
I have chosen you & have not rejected you. 
So do not fear; for I AM WITH you. 
Do not be dismayed for I am your God. 
I will strengthen you & help you. 
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. 
For I am the Lord your God,
Who takes hold of your right hand & says to you;
Do not fear I will help you!"

God often used this to let me know He would help me get thru chemo or the aftermath. 



"He will have no fear of bad news;
his heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord."   Psalm 112:7 

 We need NEVER fear what God allows or brings into our lives when we Trust in Him. 



But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. "  2 Corinthians 12:9 


Oh, His ABUNDANT grace. How I continue to learn to depend on it. 



Psalms 18:1-3
"I love you, O Lord, my strength.
The Lord is my Rock, my Fortress & my Deliverer. 
My God is my Rock in whom I take refuge. 
He is my shield & the horn of my salvation. 
I call to the Lord who is worthy of praise. "


Life is a journey; it's just the "passing through".  For on the other side of eternity is the "real deal".  But God promises to continue to carry us thru the journeys of this life in preperation for the glory and celebration on the other side...Heaven!